‘I was in an environment where only the horror stories about drugs were told’
I’ve always been very cautious about drugs. I drank alcohol and smoked a joint now and then, but it didn’t go any further than that. I entered an environment where only the horror stories about drugs were told. For me, drugs were the same as an overdose or a bad trip.
Eventually I went to a concert in Amsterdam with a good friend of mine. She had told me about ecstasy before and was surprisingly positive about her experiences. After the concert we decided to go for a stroll through town and take a tablet of ecstasy. In that one second where I did not consider the possible risks for a moment, I quickly took the tablet. Until that moment, I actually doubted all evening whether I should do it or not.
After I had enjoyed my first experience with drugs, I quickly became curious about what else there was to discover. I came into contact with Ketamine, MDMA, cocaine and 2CB. Especially 2CB attracts me enormously. On my 21st birthday, I decided to take 2CB with four good friends of mine. In addition to the impressive visual experience and the many laugh kicks we received as a result, it has strengthened our friendships. We all got into our own little trip world; as we all gradually got out of there, we got overwhelmed with emotions. I realized, along with my friends, how much we meant to each other and how we enrich each other’s lives. There was certainly a tear of happiness at that moment.
For me, honesty is the most important aspect in using drugs. After a period in which I use a lot of drugs, I always stop with using at all for a while. That way I can conform to myself that I can live without it and that the only reason I do it is because I can make my own choice.
While I am honest about my use, I unfortunately cannot be open about this. I want to tell my story, but my name and photo will be omitted. All this has to do with my career; I work in the hospitality industry. The taboo around drugs is far too big here, so by telling my story, I could possibly hinder my career. ‘
‘I entered an environment where only the horror stories about drugs were told’